Wednesday, February 05, 2014

Cabin Fever

Angel face - she radiates sweetness!
Well, it was bound to happen.  Despite popping 2000 IU's of vitamin D a day (sunshine in pill form, if you will), and despite recording all the episodes of "Modern Family" that our DVR can handle (good for laughs), and despite having the privilege to spend my days with the most joyful and amazing little person I could ever hope to imagine (it's almost impossible to be unhappy around her)...despite these things:  I have officially succumbed to cabin fever.

To be fair, I think that I have weathered this season pretty well considering I literally came from the tropics and landed in "Chiberia" during what is, quite possibly, the worst winter this area has seen in my lifetime.  Up until yesterday I rarely complained about the weather.  I tried really hard to keep a positive outlook and focus on the fact that "this is for the best" (because it is).  But the sub zero temperatures, the seemingly endless barrage of winter storms and snow, and the fact that the final weeks of growing and carrying two babies at once can really take a toll on a woman both physically and emotionally have gotten to me.  I am grouchy, moody, weepy and irritable.

While I do seem to be spending the bulk of my days parked on the couch barely able to muster the energy to make a sandwich, let alone run errands and get out of the house, I have been productive.  I've been working with an illustrator on a blog re-design which will encapsulate and reflect the changes in our family and allow me to expand my writing focus.  I have also been diligently working on an article that will hopefully be showing up in a sailing magazine in the near future (more on that when it's official). Working on these projects has given me focus and purpose, something that I desperately need in my life to feel fulfilled, but my lack of presence on this blog has gotten me in a funk.  Writing is essential to my happiness but with my energy stores at a bare minimum (sleeping comfortably these days has proven...challenging), finding the motivation to actually write in this space is hard.  I have lots of posts written in my head so they are bound to come out eventually, but it's taken me longer than I would like.  So instead, I dig into colorful bowls of rainbow sherbert and retreat into book #18 on twin rearing (no joke, it's getting ridiculous).

But enough of that, there is happy news too.  I have now reached 35 weeks in this pregnancy- no small feat when carrying twins - and I have reached this mile-marker while managing to avoid any complications whatsoever (knocking on wood).  I feel incredibly lucky, especially after reading and hearing so many stories about twin pregnancies that didn't bode as well.  I am still hoping to carry these girls "full term" or beyond (technically this is 37 weeks with twins, as opposed to 40 with 'singletons') but we shall see what the Universe has in store for us.  So far, there are no signs pointing toward an early labor and apparently the fact that I almost carried Isla for 42 weeks is a good thing.  The girls are also head down, clocking in at 5 pounds 2 ounces each and looking great.  It seems that my wishes to avoid a c-section as well as NICU time might be a possibility.  We shall see.  I am remaining hopefully optimistic but open to whatever will ensure that our outcome is two healthy babies.

Speaking of the babies, we thought we had their names selected (several times in fact), but we keep oscillating and, again, I find myself buried deep within the black hole that is the internet searching and researching names and their meanings which can be incredibly frustrating - particularly if you have been doing it for months and months.  We knew Isla was going to be "Isla" (eye-la) long before she was born and not having a clue as to what these girls will be named has me on edge.  Nothing is screaming at us, and if something does stand out - it's only doing so to one of us.  We just can't agree.  Too many syllables, too weird, too normal, too foreign, too made-up, too matchy, to cliche, too this, too that...the list goes on...I feel like Goldilocks frantically looking for names that are "just right."

So that's where we're at right now.  I've got some good ideas for meatier posts on more interesting subjects, but they'll have to wait until I get the inspiration and motivation to write them.  In the meantime,  I'm going to pop another vitamin D and pretend I am somewhere sunny.


At least these two enjoy the snow!
A little different than being buried in sand, wouldn't you say?
Here I am at 34 weeks, haven't yet taken the 35 week shot - later today...

12 comments:

Mike Minton said...

Hang in there... We love hearing you and all are ok. We soooo understand...

Carolyn Shearlock - The Boat Galley said...

Understand on the names -- we took over two weeks just to name the dog! Thought we had the "right" name immediately, then found out it meant "runny egg white" in the local slang of La Paz, Mexico, which probably explained the weird looks we'd gotten on the one day she'd had the name. So she went back to being "she." Finally, when someone suggested the real "right" name, we knew it instantly. You'll get them! Hugs and love -- we're snowed in too and wondering why in the world we got on that plane last week!

Anonymous said...

Oh hun. I say meet the girls. They will pick their names. Myoldest daughter was nnamed years before I even met her dadda my second daughter was 2 days old before we picked out her name. Dadda thought naming her after a playboy bunny was a great idea. I didn't. And our youngest daughter has a name that came out of the sky and I to this day have no idea how that happened. But my sister doing a genealogy chart discovered that in the 1800 we had a relative with her name so maybe she had that name in a previous life.
Whatever you decide I know that the fishies will have awesome names.
As for the cabin fever I am so feeling your pain. Take care and relax hun. Enjoy the quiet while you can. XoColleen Charlton.

Carol Florida U.S.A. said...

It's sad for me, to hear you're feeling kinda of down, but the lack of sun does that, without all the other things you are going through right now!!! But, when we hear your, usually, sunny disposition, reflected in your writing, it lifts us all up as well . . . wish we could now do the same for you . . . to reciprocate, in a small way, Brittany, for all the joy you've always managed to share and which serves to brighten our days!! But, very soon you will have the added excitement of the birth of your twins!! One birth, is a miracle . . . and twin births can only be even more miraculous . . . if that is even possible!!! At least you don't have long to wait, and we are all excited and full of anticipation for you, and Scott, and looking forward to Isla's expression when she sees her new twin "dolls" . . . I'm sure a photo of that would be priceless!! Love and all the best to you, Brittany!!! <3 <3 <3

Georgia said...

I think you will know their names when you meet them. Continued blessings for you in these last few weeks.

David said...

Hey Brittany, don't sweat the naming thing too much. If you're a "Game of Thrones" fan, you'd know that the Wildlings don't name their children till their 2nd birthday!

David

Laura and Hans said...

That picture of Isla buried in the snow is hysterical! And I'm certainly no expert but Girl, you haven't even 'dropped' yet so I have a feeling you're going to go close to full term.

Anonymous said...

You guys are doing great in all aspects. Your track record regarding names is second to none (Isla, Asante). It is my belief that you guys will succeed on everything you guys take on...

Cheers,
Sammy

boatbaby said...

2,000 i/u? No no nooo. It takes 5,000 i/u to remain sane. No joke, that's what I do in winter. Of course check with your doc but yeah, I started at 2,000 and realized that wasn't gonna cut it. There are good brands that do 5,000 in one dose, makes it easier. Hang in there!

Brittany (A Healthy Slice of Life) said...

I'm due in May with our second baby girl and aren't anywhere close to having a name picked out, so this makes me feel better!

I'm sure you're itching for sunshine and warmth and hope some comes your way soon!

Marcus Valdes said...

Isla has definitely lived in the extremes of life so far! Tropics and frozen tundra. I wonder what her little brain thinks of all this? My three kids live in the middle weather wise. Georgia weather is boring!
Marcus

Tom W. said...

Neither I nor my siblings were named until weeks after we were born so don't worry about that. You won't know until you see 'em!

Nice to hear that everyone's well!

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